Ted's New Realm

2號 said just now that he has many discussions in the morning, afternoon, and at night tomorrow which should be his only day-off in weekdays, and 3號 said he's writing a report, too. 

Looking at them being so busy and occupied, I am so afraid and even terrified with my heartbeats pounding feebly. I've never been so dedicated to anything over the past four years in college. And, I know I would not be able to do the same as back in high school. Or, I should put it this way. I am fearful of making changes, esp when uncertainty inundates me, to my accustomed current life. Perhaps, but I am actually affirmative, it's because I want to have my time only with my beloved ones.